Days of thunder

in the last couple of days i went through a strange form of inner revival, through being very very very angry and v.loud in that anger to hateful states of self for being such, to realising how much i love all those around me and that they do deserve something so much better than angry restless unbalanced self.
for a long time i felt that i found myself and i managed to live moreless in complete harmony of body and soul.
however in the last few weeks a storm went through my inside, as it went on the outside involving my dearest it then must have come through my lips, my nostrils, my ears into my heart and soul and made a big mess. but it is settling down, and hopefully i shall come out cleaner and stronger, a true believer rather than just full of empty words that once maybe were talking my heart.